Screw You, I Need My Husband!

It's 1:28am.  It's a "school night".  I don't want to go to bed.  My husband is not there, he's away right now, visiting his Mother in the hospital, trying to make head or tails of a world that is changing for him.  All I know is that I don't want to go to bed, I haven't wanted to go to be these past 4 nights, because he's not there.  I haven't told him this, I don't know if he finds reasons to stay up as I have.

What I do know is that when I go to bed, and he's there, I know that the day has ended just as I hoped it would, all is right.  Tonight, not so much.  He's not there.  I dread the empty that is his side of the bed.  I dread the cold this is the lack of his body heat.  I dread the comments about this.

I am a whole person.  I do not need my husband to have a complete life, but I want him in my life completely.

I'm so tired of editing myself for fear that some one is going to tell me I'm not an independent strong woman, that I feel I need a man to have a life.  Let me make this clear:  I do need my husband so that I can have a complete and happy life.  I need him because he shows me the possibilities I do not see. He is much of what is not in me, but what I hope to emulate.  He is my warmth, my stronghold, my faith.

I had all those things before I ever met Brian.  I spent 12 years as a single Mother and financial support for my son.  Life was great.  Brian has made the love in our lives greater.  I did not need a man to give me a reason to live, I had a son for that.  This man has given me reason to love myself in ways I did not know were there.  That is the best part of a good man, ladies, you get to see the value, worth and beauty of yourself that your own eyes were blind to.  (Note:  I said a GOOD man)

So, I have three things to say, choose the one you want.

For Married Women:  Never let someone tell you that you are less than a single woman because her life is harder, we all know that having a husband is no easy task, they take work.

For Single Women:  Never let someone tell you that you need to find a man to marry, you need to find a life to marry.

For All Women:  Revel in who you are and where you are in life.  Never let anyone tell you you are doing it wrong!

My Very Bestest Wishes To ALL To Find That Happy Healthy Life You Were Dreaming Of,
Richelle C. Ferree